Feeling wanted and stuff...

It's a Friday Fiver, peeps. Read em and weep... proverbially, of course.

1. I'm growing accepting of the lines of age appearing on my body. I remember my grandma having these magnificent hands that seemed to be everything I needed right when I needed them. I'm looking forward to hands that impart my wisdom some day.
2. Parenting is hard. I'll never know how I can love and hate something at the same time. It's the perfect oxymoron. I have this thing, that I made myself, that is so much like me. I just want him to grow up and be all these good things. I want to physically force him to do the things I know are right for him... but I also want him to be the perfect and unique person he is. It's quite the quandary.
3. I am grateful for my need to serve people no matter how terrible it makes me feel sometimes. Even though I have to defend my need to help others daily, I am not sorry that I do it.
4. I'm thankful for a cup that keeps my coffee warm for the entire morning because hot coffee should be cherished.
5. This week's obsession has been me focusing, read overthinking, life's wants. I see lots of things that I want, but I'm struggling with whether I'm allowed to want things. I know that is a little nonsensical, but it's my thought. I appreciate what I've had in my life. If I died right now, I'm not sure I'd be fulfilled. I want to do things mainly. I want a legacy. I want someone to say decidedly that I impacted the direction of their lives for the better. I'd love to do this in a large scale, by teaching people an insatiable desperation for reading.. while creating a larger gap in the number of adult students that graduate without literacy... but I'd settle for someone to say that I profoundly impacted the way they felt about life, love, literature, art, reason, time, anything. I'd love to be so gratuitously helpful that people began to help each other. I'd love to have a house full of foster kids to cook for, and offer them a sense of belonging, of being wanted. There I am, overthinking again.

That's the list. I hope today finds you full of inspiration. Inspiration to move forward. To exist with purpose. To use the brokenness you endure to save another.

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